Over the last several weeks I've had some recurring dreams, all involving that girl from college that I can't get over.
Last night the dream was that she needed some way to stay in America because her father was ill or something along those lines. So she agreed to marry me to get permanent resident status for herself and her father. I kissed her several times and then she jumped into bed...and then I woke up.
There have been other dreams with various premises. The commonality among them is a) it involves the same girl and b) involves me kissing her repeatedly/making out with her. Sex never takes place, though last night's dream got pretty close.
I think it's undeniable that I'm still pretty crazy about her. But these dreams are driving me insane. I wake up afterwards to the depressing reality that the dream was completely fictional. And then of course I have the additional depressing reality that no woman since her has wanted to spend any more than 2 coffee dates with me.
I really have no idea. I feel stuck in neutral.
Any thoughts? I have been toying with the idea of going to a therapist, but it kind of gives me the heebie jeebies. What do you readers think?